Similar Feelings

When I found out I was pregnant with Haley, I was elated. I dreamed about what it would be like to see her, touch her, hold her, hear her laugh, and watch her grow. As time went on, I realized that I would actually have to deliver her, and then I was nervous, even scared. At 9 months, the fear gave way to the joy that it would be to not only have her here with us, but to not have to be carrying around an extra 30 pounds every day. I was exhausted. Tired. Achy. I was just done. I think God designed that on purpose. He knew our bodies would wear out and that our fear would be diminished by the joy of what was coming next.

I am feeling the same way now. And no, I am not pregnant.

But we are getting ready to move. And if you read this blog often, you know it is to a smaller place and a lot of adjustments are having to be made. It has made me nervous, scared, and even sad. But as I was lying in bed last night (I got to bed at 2am)...so exhausted...so tired...so achy....I started thinking, "I just can't wait until we are moved into our new house." I didn't care how small it was....I didn't care about the pain, both physical and mental, that it was going to be....I just wanted to be there. Snuggled up with the family, on the couch, in our new house, starting our new life. And it was then that I realized that I had felt those same feelings four years ago, before the birth of Haley.

So today we begin our move. I'm not scared. My fear is diminished by the joy of what is coming next.

Let's do this.